living my life to the fullest___

Tired.

Friday, August 20, 2010

I am really tired of all these. My head tells me to go, but my heart wants to stay with you. Can't you do something about it before its too late? Or do you want to wait until my feelings for you are dead THEN making me happy becomes a top priority then you act?

Things you promised months ago not done. Reminded you constantly but you always forgot/placed it as low priority.

I really cannot think of any excuse for you on this one. You draw all the time in lesson, but up till now still no card? I'm sick and tired of waiting and reminding you. It has been a few months already. Is it really that low on your priority to make me happy? No card even for 1&1/2 yrs?

Balloons, maybe your thinking is that its not important and expensive so no need to buy. But have you ever thought that how happy I would be to receive it from you? Just one would make me happy. But nope. 2months ago I already said I wanted it for anniversary. Two anniversaries have passed but no balloons. I don't think its THAT expensive. Its just that to you, its not on high priority. Fast food and soft drinks are on high priority.

But what about respect? If you can't respect me like a proper girlfriend, then just fuck off.

What about the quality time that I want us to spend together? All I want is just to hold your hand and silently lie on your shoulder to enjoy the peace and quiet. But you can't seem to do that for more than a few minutes.. You'd just end up doing something else.

And what about studying hard like you promised me? Instead of studying hard and showing me that you are dependable, you always end up sleeping. And that in the end only makes me want to idle around like you. You influence me as well. And I would end up being stressed for MYSELF and worried for YOU. As if that isn't tiring enough..

On the other hand, I really appreciate it for trying to protect me and being there for me when I'm down, even if you don't understand why I would get upset.

If I count by the "head" reasons, negative ones are more than positive ones. If I include the "heart" reason... I don't know. I'm uncertain. I'm confused.

Could you please. Do something before I decide.

This is the last time I would say this. I will NOT repeat this again. I have already said this countless times.

meowmeow~ 9:29 AM

Nooo

Monday, August 09, 2010

Less than 20 days to prelims. havent studied anything!!!!!!!!!!

meowmeow~ 10:01 PM