Monday, July 28, 2008
I finally understand what it really means to be "super unglam CAN!".
I'm perfectly normal retarded.
Just before my 2.4km napfa test, I suddenly went like,
OMGGGGG!! I HAVENT EATEN! WHERE DO I GET MY ENERGY TO RUN FROM!! DD: KUKU!
So I shoved FOUR pieces of bread into my mouth on the cab.
Its not like its not bad enough that I binge all the time. (Can't help it though)
I stupidly had to eat so much right before my running test. =.=
So I ended up like, 104th?
And vomitted twice -.-" (Sorry to those who stepped on it o.0 I hope nobody did tho..) Disgusting..
The smell&taste of peanut butter puke is still lingering on my mouth even now.
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Super guilty to my mum lurh.
2 weeks ago, I was supposed to bring her to this Magic Box show at the Esplanade. She was like really anticipating to go. Haven't seen her put on makeup for ages. Sadly (Stupid of me T_T) I left my wallet in school. The tickets were in my wallet. OH GOSH.............
Funny thing is? Thank goodness I left the tickets in school, and we couldn't go.
No, not because of some accident which happened on that day or what.
Because, i remembered wrongly, the tickets were for the night before -.-
IMBAAAAAAA!!
*OWNS*
Okay enough of Dota language.
So there's the new aim-bring my mother to the movies. Probably watch qian bu gou yong 2 or smth.
Whoops. I see 7 blinking msn windows. Better go now.
TATA!
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PS: Thanks emms for the scores!
*Msn windows blink*
PPS: Please try to forget whatever you saw earlier today T__T
*BLINK BLINK BLINK BLINK BLINK*
PPPS: ohya, and...
*Windows start POPPING IN MY FACE, as if shouting to me: OI! PS ENOUGH LE NOT! REPLY ME LAAH U IDIOT!"*
Wait lurh you.. Lemme finish.. -.- ohya and...
*FASTER LA!*
DIAM LA. lemme think. erm. ermmm.
er, now what was i going to say? -.-
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*OI! REPLY!*
....FINE................................. -glares-
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im seriously ^ lame. ^
geez, what a lie...
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Damn those doctors. They frightened me to death -.-
They weren't any weird heart diseases or heart attacks or whatever. (Stupid doctors!) They were panic attacks.
Here's the website:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Panic_attack
Well no one has ever died from a panic attack before, so it's not really that serious.
For those who still don't know what the hell I'm talking about, heres it:
The reason why I didn't attend school for the whole of last week was due to me being sleepy me being lazy the stupid attacks =.= Get it? Although I know I'm "famous" for being the "pon school kia".
And the stupid doctor told me it might be heart attacks. Then realised she had made a wrong diagnosis. That explained my previous post -.- Idiot idiot idiot =.= Scare me to deathhhhh
I shall copy paste some parts from the wiki website, cause I know there's people out there like me who're too lazy to read it. And then will bother me asking about it ._. However its still very wordy though =x
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Description
Panic attacks are sudden, discrete periods of intense anxiety, mounting physiological arousal, fear, stomach problems (spastic colon) and discomfort that are associated with a variety of somatic and cognitive symptoms.The onset of these episodes is typically abrupt, and may have no obvious triggers. Although these episodes may appear random, they are a subset of an evolutionary response commonly referred to as fight or flight that occur out of context. This response floods the body with hormones, particularly epinephrine (adrenaline), that aid in defending itself from harm. Experiencing a panic attack is said to be one of the most intensely frightening, upsetting and uncomfortable experiences of a person's life.
Many who suffer panic attacks state they are the most frightening experiences of their lives. Sufferers of panic attacks report a fear or sense of dying, "going crazy", or experiencing a heart attack, feeling faint, nauseous, "flashing vision", or losing control of themselves. These feelings may provoke a strong urge to escape or flee the place where the attack began (a consequence of the sympathetic "fight or flight" response).
Symptoms
Physical
A sensation of adrenaline going through your entire body
Sweating
Shortness of breath (dyspnea)
Stomach problems (spastic colon)
Racing or pounding heartbeat or palpitations
Chest pain
Dizziness or vertigo
Headache
Lightheadedness
Nausea / stomach pains
Hyperventilation
Choking or smothering sensations
Hot flashes
Cold flashes
Tingling or numbness in the hands, face, feet or mouth (paresthesia)
Feelings of "crawly," "itchy," or "cringy" skin sensations.
Burning sensations
Trembling or shaking
Feeling of claustrophobia
Feeling like the body is shutting down/ dying
Tremors in the legs/shaking legs/thighs
Tingling spine
Feeling like one is experiencing a heart attack
Exhaustion
Muscle spasms
Feeling of physical weakness or limpness of the body
Grinding teeth or tensing other muscles repeatedly or for prolonged periods of time
Temporary blindness
Sizzling/ringing in ears/head
Mental
Intense and/or frightening realizations of reality
Loss of the ability to react logically to stimuli
Loss of cognitive ability in general
Racing thoughts (often based on fear)
Irrational thoughts
Loud internal dialogue
Feeling like nothing is real
Feeling of impending doom
Feeling of "going crazy" or becoming insane
Feeling out of control
Feeling like no one understands what is happening
Vision is somewhat impaired (eyes may feel like they are shaking.)
Feeling that death will come any second
Avoidance behavior
Agoraphobia
Emotional
Terror, or a sense that something unimaginably horrible is about to occur and one is powerless to prevent it
Fear that the panic is a symptom of a serious illness
Fear that the panic will not subside
Fear of losing control
Fear of death
Fear of living
Fear of going crazy
Flashbacks to earlier panic trigger[citation needed]
Intense "scared" feeling
Fear of failure
Perceptual
Tunnel vision
Heightened senses
The apparent slowing down or speeding up of time
Dream-like sensation or perceptual distortion (derealization)
Dissociation, or the perception that one is not connected to the body or is disconnected from space and time (depersonalization)
Feeling of loss of free will, as if acting entirely automatically without control
I know it just sounds like a mental illness, but its not T_T (I hope O.O But actually, if it was, I could kill people without getting sentenced. MUAHAHA! joking)
Triggers and Causes
-Heredity; should be understood by everybody uh -.-
-Biology Causes; eg.Vitamin B deficiency, Generalised anxiety, obsessive compulsive disorder
-Phobias; During exposure of a phobia object or situation
-Short-Term Triggering causes; Significant personal loss, including an emotional attachment to a romantic partner, life transitions, significant life change, etc
-Lack of Assertiveness; should be understood too
Treatment
-Paper bag rebreathing =.=? DIAO...
-Medication
-Acceptance and Acknowledgement
-Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT).
-Talking with a supportive person — someone who has experienced true panic attacks personally; someone who is highly trained in treating panic attacks; loved ones who can offer support and comfort. (SHOWER ME WITH LOVE AND I'LL GET WELL!:DDD)
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Once again, damn that %$%$^#$. I had to go check it up on my own, they didn't tell me much. $#%$#$(!^#!!! =.=!!
Anyway, my phone has some probs (Thanks to me smashing it on the floor twice, damaging the speakers too) and currently I can't transfer any photos with it-so yeah, no photos for the meantime. Till I get it fixed. (too lazy to go o.0)
I want maomaochong hairstyle D:
Straight hair till the collar bone then it becomes wavy..
Something like this
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Okay that was lame.
Tata =D
I miss you so much...
Wednesday, July 09, 2008
Why did I ever think of ending my life? Just because of some minor setbacks. Which can't even be compared to others.
How precious is life?
You will know how precious life is when you are experiencing near death, you wil remember what are the things you did and didn't do. That's the time when you will know how your life is important. We have only one soul and we will grow old as time flies we will not be able to change our age. We can't do things we did when we're old.
When we want to say I love you in that person but its too late that's when will know how we should not waste our life. And take the day for granted.
The preciousness of life can only be judged from an inward point of view. How precious is the life of the son just about to commit suicide to a loving mother and how precious is that same life to him self? How Precious is the life of a fly that you are about to swat how precious is that same life to the fly as it attempts to get out of your way?
Now why did I suddenly realise this?
While I was randomly surfing the net today, I chanced upon this website.
Which gives you the symptoms of heart attacks which may lead to heart attack.
(PS: Do not think too much, it's just randomly chanced upon it, not I go search for it de)
COMMON (TYPICAL) SYMPTOMS
Chest pain lasting more than 20 minutes
Cold sweat
Dizziness
Difficulty breathing
Nausea
Vomiting
UNCOMMON (ATYPICAL) SYMPTOMS
Upper abdominal pain
Back pain
Jaw pain
Left arm pain
Shoulder pain
Palpitations
Loss of consciousness
I also found some risk factors for heart attack.
High blood pressure
Diabetes
High blood cholesterol
Smoking
Obesity
Family history of heart attack or stroke
Age ( Men over 45 years and Women over 55 years)
&, fats may accumulate in your blood vessels and may not be shown on the outside of the body.
That explains it all.
People often take a wait-and-see approach to the symptoms, as they
-Do not understand the symptoms of a heart attack and think that what they are feeling is due to something else.
-Are afraid or unwilling to admit that their symptoms could be serious.
-Are embarrassed about "causing a scene," or going to the hospital and finding out it is a false alarm.
-Do not understand the importance of getting to the hospital right away.
damn myself.
Dont waste your life away- do what you want to accomplish as soon as you can. Stop eating all those junk food, deep fried food dammit. Don't be complacent, stop thinking it won't happen to you, what are the chances etc-before its all too late.
Thanks kai for waking me up.
Quotes of the day?
"Since time is so limited to you, why waste your time deciding what to do?"
"Cherish your time left or cry over split milk."
